Damn you!

Sigh I’m pretty mad right now…  Yesterday we went to Le Baron’s out of business sale and while I was looking at camping, winter & ammo, Brandon grabbed some fishing stuff.  I thought it was silly but he said he wanted me to buy it because grandpa promised to take him fishing and he wanted to have something to take with him when they went.  Brandon is such a sweet kid and my dad is a fucking asshole, he was always selfish and growing up I had no choice but to deal with it.

When his infidelities came to light, I put my personal feelings aside and tried to be as supportive as I could.  When I met Monita, it was difficult but I tried to be welcoming and opened my doors to his new life. Well we know how that turned out, his life revolves only around himself and that’s it.  I don’t mind him not having time for me but I think it’s wrong that he has no time for my son.

I thought I was over him but it appears not if something so small and innocent can set me off.  It’s been over a year since our argument and the anger of him rejecting Brandon still burns hot, it’s not something I understand either because my boy is so sweet.

4 thoughts on “Damn you!

  1. Dear Colin,

    It is obvious from this post that you are in emotional distress.

    Please consider counseling as a solution. At the very least you need to seek someone out to talk about things.

    I normally limit my comments to environmental issues but I feel your pain and so I thought that I should speak up.

    May the Lord watch over you and good luck.

  2. Apologies for the late reply.

    Thank you for your kind words, it’s difficult and I do have a support group here was just frustrated so I had to post something publicly as those types of things are typically dark posts.

  3. Sorry for this late update. I travel all over Europe for my work and I just got home.

    I don’t know if you are religious but I will say a prayer for you. There is nothing as sad as family problems on this earth.

    Best of luck Colin!

  4. Don’t worry about it, I’m flattered that you care about someone half a world away. 😀

    I’m not religious but thank you anyway. I know I’m going to need to make the first step if my dad and I are going to salvage our relationship but it’s not something I’m ready to do yet. For whatever reason he doesn’t care about his grandson (or his new granddaughter) and it’s a freaking shame because he’s missing so many special moments.

    Oh well thank you again.

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